The Peanut Gallerie

Last night, he got into this trance and no matter what, he just kept going. He looked like he was having so much fun, so I let him be :o)

He, he... Silly James.

Answer, yes, but don't give him a big head about it, lol. 

His Grandma Powell bought him this adorable little pumpkin outfit. He's been wearing a lot of footie pajamas because it's getting colder at night. These are perfect for Halloween! (and look how well he is starting to hold himself up!)

We aren't doing much this holiday. Mostly sitting at home and handing out candy. Maybe we'll take a trip over to IKEA to show off his little costume. They are hosting a trick-or-treating night. We will see.

 

Although, it has knocked out my people that I converse with everyday online... making this week... lonely.

James had developed a little cough. I'm not sure where it came from, but he coughs a little in the morning and when he laughs. It's like a dry cough. I called the advice nurse at Kaiser to see if I should take James in. The lady was very helpful. The only thing that struck me as odd was her fourth question... was he blue?

Really?

It took you that long to ask me if he was blue? Wouldn't the "Is he choking" question be before "Does he seem happy?", lol. 

Oh well. 

Luckily, James is breathing and is not blue. He's also eating and in a very pleasant mood... and does not have a fever. All of which are good signs. I'm not going to take him in just yet. I don't want to expose him to anything by jumping the gun. I just hope his little cough passes soon :o)

Well, we didn't quite make it out to Applehill. I didn't think that tiring myself out with an hour drive would help. My body is weak and I'm worried I might get sick if I keep caring on like that.

It's like clockwork.

Plus I love cartoons :o)

The neat part is that he does. 

Getting it into his mouth is no problem. Almost like he has been waiting to eat this stuff for a while. He seems so hungry for it too. Like will start to grunt at me if I'm not fast enough, lol. 

I hope that goes away.

No, the problem we have is keeping it in the mouth. Like he has discovered how to push food out and now, cannot wait to keep trying it. At least he gets creative with it. Sometimes, he'll just push it right out, but occasionally he'll blow raspberries so it's all over his face and bib.

Lucky for us, auntie Kelli bought an easy wipe bib. Which I thought was going to be better than the material ones (laundry is piling). Only now, the food doesn't soak into the bib and James thinks it's funny to try to eat off of it. So, the food that was on the bib will end up all over his face.

Needless to say, by the end of feeding, I'm cleaning baby face, baby hands, baby bib, and occasionally baby hair.

Like I said, he's creative.

Lucky for James, I know about second breakfast at 10am.

Yeah, I'm a little sleepy, but having nights with James makes it bearable. Last night, he decided to stay up with me for a bit. He's moving around so much more now. I don't know when it started, but now he can roll over. It's so silly how excited you get when your baby starts to do new things. I use to think people who talked about their pets and babies were just trying to brag. But it's so amazing as a parent watching him discover these new talents for the first time!

I know... that's his dad... but I'm his mom. I'm not saying it's better... but it is different. The connection we have is irreplaceable. We have been together for a year now. He has been a part of my life in a way no one else will experience with him. 

He is my baby. 

I never understood this connection before. It was new to me. My mom tells me that James lights up when he sees me... I have begun to notice. I am his world and he is mine. When he needs soothing, it's a strange thing to know how to handle this when there is no verbal communication. It's as if it is ingrained in me... like a switch went off when he came into this world and I knew what I had to do. (spooky)

So, for us to be apart is sometimes torture... if that even describes it correctly. It is painful. It hurts the heart. I know where I send him, he is safe, but that is not always comforting. Sometimes, I just want to hold him in my arms.

I've tried to keep myself busy during these times. (I've learned it is what's best for me) At first I went on a couple of dates and as fun and normal these guys were, I wanted nothing more but to be reunited with James. Lately, I've been back to designing a few things. I would take up baking cupcakes again, but worried about the extra costs and pounds that follow my favorite hobby. I'm thinking of starting up a MOPS group at Skyline. Get connected with some of the moms in the area... especially the single ones who might understand a little better. (Although even the married ones express their sympathy for my situation.)

I've also planned a few fun things for James and I to do when we are together and with Halloween around the corner things have been easy to find. My friend Steph and I are headed up to Applehill this weekend. We are looking for a good pumpkin patch to take the kids. I am excited to show James the world... even if it is one Saturday at a time :o)

First one is early in the morning. I sit on the bed and put him on my lap facing me with my knees up. I make a funny face and James starts to laugh. Then I start to laugh because baby laughs are so sweet and cute. Then James sees me laughing and starts to laugh more. I laugh harder, which in turn, makes him laugh even harder. 

He usually ends the game.

The next one is figuring out who the baby in the mirror is. I have huge mirrored closet doors. I hold James in front of them. At first he is suspicious. (I mean, who is this other baby in his mommy's arms anyways?) Then he starts to laugh. I think the baby says something funny to start it off, like "Who do you think you are, bear?"

The last game is the flying game. He likes that one :o)

The one game we don't get to play that often is tummy time. I had no idea that not all babies like tummy time? 

Since I moved, family is far away and they are in dire need of updates. Plus, people have said they looked forward to reading this blog... even the lurking ones that don't become fans :o)

Okay, here's what you've missed. (I'll get you caught up)

Peanut and I moved back to Sacramento!!!! Oh si si. So much fun. Krisite has been kind enough to give us a room in her beautiful home in Natomas. For now, we are sharing the big bedroom. I can fit my queen back in here and James is in a crib. I have a changing table... good thing too because the dresser wasn't going to last much longer. 

We have lots of roommates. There's Kristie and Rob, who are mainly at Rob's place. Zack and his kitty Sampson, who is a very loud kitty. Plus all of the animals in the back. Mamma, and the kittens. (She's not their mom, that's just her name) Oh and James' favorite, the guppies in the fish tank :o)

So far, we are settled in here. We've got a routine down and it's amazing to see him grow everyday. He's already in size 3 diapers!!! Crazy. He's a good roommate too. He still hardly ever cries and even when he is awake, he's very chill. Relaxed baby is a good baby :o)

I'm still working from home with Entango, but have applied to get on the list for some state jobs. I have my interview next Monday. I'm nervous, but excited!

The best part is getting back to Skyline. I bring James with me sometimes and it is so amazing to see him enjoy worship. He loves the lights and music. He actually tries to move around and dance... it's the cutest thing ever.

I have to go, James is up from his nap. Here's James at 21 weeks. I can't believe he'll be 5 months soon.